Don't avoid the obvious. Please; not only will it be a be a benefit to me but it will also make me feel better. Stop trying to act like you know everything when what you don't know id right in your face. Please. I'd really appreciate it. I guess angry music makes me feel good. It makes me feel better. And it's not really angry music it's just music that expresses different feelings then getting bitches and money. Angry music and alternative music is something 99% of the world can relate to. Very few people can actually just go to the club with money and get as many bitches as they want. You don't understand how hard this is for me. I want to send the letter but how do I know it's going to make me feel better. I keep feeling like sending the letter is selfish because all it does is make me feel better. But when that's over what happens next? What do I do to ease the pain? Some self harm. But what good does that do? Some drink and do drugs. But what good does that do? What do I do? Write. I type or write down anything that comes to mind. It gets what ever is bothering me off my mind but it still hurts. And then it comes back to my mind. The two reasons why I write and type is because of sadness and anger. How fair is this to me? I don't think it's fair at all. I don't deserve to feel this way. I feel like I've turned bitter and an emotional wreck and that's not who I am. My anxiety level is out of control. My heart pounds so hard it hurts. Any emotion feels like it's ten million times the size of a normal one. What do I do?