The obvious would be that I am hurt. I feel like I should be saying i'm used to it. But it is right for me? Is it fair to me that my whole life has been filled with hurt. Can I go a month with out something going wrong? I feel bad that I am always down but what else can I do? I can't hide the way I feel. I don't want to keep things bottled up anymore. Things still stay inside but they come back to bite me in the ass. Whether it's a complete meltdown or it's a burst of anger. Some people remind me so much of the past I feel like taking it out on them. I'm very thankful for my self control. Living in an area where you constantly had to look for trouble was not only bad for my health and mind but terrifying. Boy am I glad to be done with that. But living in such a situation taught me to stand up for my self; and being yourself is okay! Each day is given to you. Some may not deserve it but it sure is worth living. Some think each moment and each day is not worth the pain. Some only think of the hate and the pain. Some think of pain and happiness. Some think of only happiness and when they are hurt, they are not prepared for it. I feel bad for the best ones who make the most out of everything and everyone. I don't mean to be a pessimist but this world is just not made up to what its said to be. Don't be always negative and don't always be positive. Be somewhere in the middle, you will be best there. That's where I am. I know things will get better but I also know I will always be hurt. Meet your self somewhere in the middle.